Notes

Believe it or not, I think NIcholas and I might have alot more in common than I thought. He is really good at art and is also good with computers.
Frick, this kid is gonna be the death of me. Cindy says to talk to him like nothing ever happened but then I'm over here like, aha, fam, life doesnt work like that. At least, I dont. Anyway, I dont know, if he, oh you know, didnt hate me so much, life would probably be so much frickin easier.
I also should get over this by now, Mom(Kris) says I shouldn't give him the time of day but, its not that easy for me to get over things like others do.
Ive talked to mom about this and she says she thinks I miss the person I thought I knew in Nicholas and the relationship I thought I had with him. Like, friend ways.
If he would quit being so closed up towards me, it would be helpful. Also, w8, Aimee said yesterday he talked to her and it was.. okay-ish. After she found out his true colors from me, (maybe, idk) she said she doesnt want to be is friend because of it. I repeatedly told her to be his friend because I should be the reason she isnt friends with him anymore, like, Aimee, its your life, not mine. I just feel bad and then Alexis said she thinks Nicholas likes her and I'm liked. oijiroehigor I dont know, I probably do I just dont know it yet. I'm very complex and I just was closure in the end. Alexis has someone so, its not like he would have the greatest chance but, I guess he can try. She doesnt like that he has a crush on her because it makes her uncomfortable due to his past. I personally think he deserves someone who he can open up to , so he isnt so closed all the time. I think it would soften him. Just my opinion, I may be completely wrong but, just a thought. Anyway, I could go on and on about this, Im sure you all know this but.. yea. This is like, only 5 million paragraphs long. Ill shut up now, for now, aha. My life in a nutshell.