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okay no one understands anything so let me express how I feel for the first time... You really don't understand the stuff I go through my life is fucked up you may not think it is but it is but let me tell you from the start growing up as a kid I got bullied through 4-7th grade I told my mom she didn't listen I told my sister they used to make fun of me when I got to 8th I moved to long island I was so happy bc I thought things would change but slightly didn't I met a girl named tiff I thought she would be my close friend told her everything but no she wasn't she got me jumped by 11th graders bc I couldn't give her what she wanted which was sneakers and I got rushed to the hospital possibly could of died but I didn't got to 9th finally a smooth year until I found out my dad was a rapist broke me to pieces 10th what a horrible year I met a boy and I really thought he was the one but he wasn't he just wanted to fuck I didn't want to though bc I knew I wasn't ready to lose my v card months past and it turned into a abusive relationship I used to cry every night bc I wish I could just leave but it was so hard then when I told him I didn't want to fuck I had know choice but too I was so hurt still to this day I hurt and no one understands my problems only people I had was my sisters and my mom that changed now that im in a 11th my mom changed she told me she wish she never had me she hope I get raped she kicked me out her boyfriend calls me all types of names thats when I gaved up and over does on pills at the moment I really wanted to end my life I used to cut my arm everything bc noone cared I left a suicide letter in my locker and that when I went home and tried to end my life.