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Hi,

Today I was very happy in the morning, but when I reached the office, I saw Shilpa's face. Her mood was not veey good. I was staring at her whole day but she did not even try to say any word to me. That is why, I felt very bad today. This day was very bad for me. That, I haven't talked to my love in the whole day. Although, when she asked me to take a break when she had logged out, then also I denied to her firstly. But, then I thought that if I am feeling bad then why I will make any other person sad. I always try to make my surroundings happy that is why everybody loves to be with me. I don't want to change my nature. I always want that Shilpa will become happy. I always try to make her smile and when she smiles because of me then I feel excellent. Yesterday, She was remembering her Ex and because of him, she was very sad yesterday. But I don't know why she was remembering him when she know that he will never came for her and if in the past they have decided that they will never marry each other. They already knew that one day they have to leave each other. Then why she was feeling about him. She have to became happy that they both broke up without fight. He already taken a startup. But I don't know when Shilpa will move on. This type of feelings occurs when a guy make fake promises that he will marry you and in the last leave her by breaking all the commitments. But as Shilpa told me that he hasn't given any fake promises like that. Then why she feel about him. Shilpa must uunderstand the thing that everyone has a simillar situtaion in their life once. I already had a situation like this, but I never thought about her and never felt sad. I just feel good and always wish for her that she will remain happy wherever she is living. Shilpa is a brave girl. One thing she has to overcome is her fear of getting attached to anyone. She wants love but she has a fear of leaving that person. This is life, we are not here to leave everyone. We are here to make memories and take all these memories with us. So that when we feel alone, then we will remember these memories and we had a small smile on our face by saying these words that, "What was that days". We have done and made and done many silly things with each other. I have spent my whole life with my parents, but these 7 months are very different and in these new days I have made new freinds and I will never forget all these days. When I remember these past 7 months then I become very emotional and I got a smile and happy tears in my eyes. I always wants love but never found a true one. I have 8 requirements, in there is one more requirement and if a girl has that quality then I will forgot my all the 8 requirements. That one requirement is that she will truely love me and will always say that I Love You even if u r fighting with me. She always has time for me. But when I try to find something like that in any girl, then that girl leave me by saying u will find better than me. But I don't know why, I saw that love in Shilpa's eyes. I know when she love, she will definitely make her love to her extreme. Yes, I love Shilpa but She never loved me and she will never love me. That's the fact, and I have already accepted this fact. But I am happy for her that she smiles because of me. I always scared of leaving her and I never want to leave her. I have left this thing on the time and future. Who knows......