Notes

Ill start by saying that Im definitely not suicidal. I am, though, very paranoid about a nuclear war. Im building an emergency disaster kit and a first aid kit. Ideally, in that situation, I would try and survive through it but I do believe, that in the case of a nuclear war I would be in a very vulnerable area. Im hoping that if my area does ever get nuked, Ill be in ground zero vs being in an area where my chance of dying from radiation poisoning would be high. I do want to keep a saftey measure in place should I be in that situation. I obviously would rather die as peacefully and painlessly as possible.

I want to know what is the fastest and most painless and potent pill or drug that I can keep in my kit specifically for this situation? Ideally I will drift off into a sleep and die quickly and without pain. Guns, hanging, or gassing myself wouldnt be an option.

Also, I would be keeping this item in my disaster kit in abag or bottle labled "toxic: do not ingest". That will be in small lock box labled "do not open contents will result in serious injury or death if consumed" and that small lock box will be kept in another lockbox that requires a combination and that lock box will be in my emergency kit which will have other first aid items and will be locked. I will hide all keys in my air vent in my ceiling. Not that anyone will ever be able get it but the point is that Im not going to accidentally kill myself or someone. If those boxes get opened it will be only because I 100% am going to die a slow and painful death if I dont kill myself.