Notes

Not sure if youll get this entirely, not sure if it makes sence myself lol...


Not sure how I feel about all this mixed emotion, causing my brain too much commotion nearing destruction, a little bit exaggerated but you get where im coming from, that constant two or fro, which ones the right one which is the no? Mixed signals from new initials, little niggles that wobble wibbles the squiggles on the page of mischievous, not sure if it banter or something a little more serious, so unsure im not sure if im delirious. It might just be amplification cause I’ve always had the most hesitation, really can’t tell if its overestimation or over contemplation
I know you think im mysterious, but im just not too upfront about all of this, cause im used to my shit doesn’t matter, almost like an abyss, nervous laugh and flinch but a legitimate twitch, I hate being the bitch and I like the odd wish, never been no snitch, no that’s not me, I am my name a busy beez, love music got no other needs, go to work then come home chill out with some weed, such a simple life I lead, got nothing to hide and no secret scheme, and im not one that follows the American dream. Cause for me ulterior motives don’t float my boat, im more of a clear coating that simply likes to know things.
Not sure If I should say cause im bold enough to know I know how you work, but I really cant decide if its just a friendly smirk, or if im clouded cause of all this smoke, cause I do like you and its not a joke, but I don’t want to make it awkward and make you feel a choke, that’s why im being like a bloke and not telling you how the cookie crumbles, cause were like a pair of double turn tables bro, cause I don’t want to lose you as a friend either, nope, ive thought about it under the scope, that’s why im careful with what I say and how I portray cause I lose the voice in my throat everyday, not necessarily certain of things to say cause I sound like a bellend, just useless information to all my friends.
Jokes times and rhymes think Ive got these feelings, but I do and don’t know why, maybe its cause time just fly’s by or cause neither of us need an alibi, like my other rhyme said im on your side, just don’t wanna say it cause you’ll wave off, goodbye. This probably sounds very desperate but you asked so im trying my best to elaborate, words have never just fallen onto my plate, im just saying that yeah I do like you and I think your great but I know what your like or can be so that’s why im happy being your mate and let it be, cause otherwise it will be dramatic like the titanic and the sea, like right now on whattsapp your not responding to me, whats that about if I can say to you whatever I see, well apparently? Oh well that’s not what this raps supposed to be about.
This is what I was trying to prevent, id rather pretend theres nothing there cause you’re a mate and I care, instead of sitting here knowing your there and im over here too late, thats why nothing was mentioned, you asked and now I see the potential that your feeling weird, just don’t go Alaska and grow a beard, nothings gunna be different cause now ive cleared this topic and im not feeling on it, if were on a boat then id rather rock it than topple it if you get my gist, hand or fist, still be here after the mist.
It could be that we just chill and get high trying to wright rhymes, or the fact im drawn straight to your gorgeous eyes, or it could be that we both think were wise guys, cause were quite smart after the double dye almost like a last minute surprise.
If your feeling heartless, come at be bro ill be guard less, cause regardless I play hard, catching up with them targets, ill still be sat here the same old retarded, harmless living life to the largest, but now im wordless but I know were the smartest