Notes

I lost you.. This pain will never go away, I promised you I'd stay for you, but you didn't stay for me, does this mean I'm free, does it mean I can take my life too?

I'm broken, I'm hoping, I'm not open, I'm confused, I'm consumed, I'm doomed, I'm not okay.

You're gone, forever. I'll never see you again, I'll never see the old me again, when you killed yourself you killed two people, yourself, and the person I was. You didn't text, you didn't call, you didn't respond, I was worried, I thought I had hurried, guess quick is what I wasn't, but matter it doesn't, not anymore. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, no I'm not, you hurt me, you hurt your father, he's alone now, as am I, we always said we couldn't, no we shouldn't that we wouldn't, guess you didn't get the memo, maybe I should have played us a demo, for a moment all is silent, but soon I'll fall into the deafening screams of my horrid realization that you're gone, I'll never hear that laugh that make my mood do a 180, never again see that smile that could bring light to the darkest corners of my deprived, decried mind, most of all ill never hear the heavenly voiced envied by angles.

I'm distraught, I'm left without thought, I'm turning blue, I'm lost with you, I'm no longer able to continue this rhythm, tears fall, my heart I was so unsure of having is broken, my stomach has collapsed beneath the devastating weight of depression, my face changes to show normality, the mask goes on, the facade continues while I wage war inside, I've made it about me, it's about you, you're gone, it's almost dawn, when I yawn, I say my goodbye, certainly not the last you'll be on my mind until the end of time, I love you, I need you, I miss you, rest in peace Madison.

Yours Sincerely,

Trey.