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Her usual cerulean eyes had faded into a muddied dull as unfamiliar and rare tears flowed and poured, dripping down the sides of her face to showcase her pitiful, shaking form. She wasn't supposed to cry. *He* wasn't supposed to see her cry. *Not again...*
"I..." She tried to speak, but only ended up stuttering and shaking harder, unable to form words through her almost unhealthily heavy sobs.
"C-Colress, I-- d-don't know w-what's wrong with me," she sobbed desperately, raising her arms to hug them around herself tightly. It only ended up making her cry harder, "I- I know you said c-crying was healthy... b-but I'm n-not okay, Colress. It's n-not healthy for *me*... I'm not okay..."
She paused, letting herself creep and cuddle her way deeper into the furthest, darkest corner of the room where she had curled, as if she wanted to shrink her body all the way into non-existence.
"A-all I want is to make you h-happy C-Colress... And I'm scared I c-can't even do that right anymore?"
She shuttered again, her shaky breath noticeably chopping up her words and making it difficult for her to do much, aside from curl tighter into herself.
"...Y-you once told me something... That... You were "simply obsessed" with me? I-is ...is it okay to b-be so *completely* obsessed with you too?"
Another fit of shaky sobs, as the woman began to slowly rub her hands up and down her own forearms confortingly. Not like it did much to help.
"You're the only person that I live for; *I owe you my life.* And yet, I can't help but know there's something wrong with me... Y-you deserve b-better, Colress..."
Her rubbing hands became a bit more aggressive against her arms, as if she longed for a touch that she could no longer feel.
"I'd do a-anything for you... *Anything* to please you..." a sharp indrawn breath of shuttered air, "...Is that healthy, C-Colress? I-is it healthy to be so attached to something I could lose? You- aren't like a prize Pokemon simply to c-catch and resell Colress, y-you are something I want to keep for myself forever and n-never lose... And I want to be yours forever too... Colress you are my *everything*. Without you I'd have nothing anymore. I-is that healthy? A-am I okay? A-am I enough for you...? To be worth all of this?"