Notes

You can say whatever you want about my life, but nothing has given me more suicidal feelings than school. The institution of learning and teaching children, an institution that is supposed to prep them for life, not make them kill themselves long before they start life. Fuck me, if there's anything more contradictory than that let me know. I want to die, I want an end to this suffering so much that I don't know what to do anymore. I can't sleep because of exams, I wake up at 5:30AM just thinking of how I did on that fucking exam. FUCK MY LIFE.
I want to die, this is horrible I want no piece of this rotten cake they call life. They add some sugar on the top to cover up the fact that it's all worm shit inside, and make us think it's what we've earned. No. Fuck this. If I don't kill myself by 4th grade I'll consider myself a better survivalist than Bear Grylls.
Right now I'm worrying about an Italian exam but I don't want to I tell myself not to because life is not about worrying about such shits but my mum encourages me to: GET BETTER GRADES OMFG and then I get pressured and all I want to do is be alone, have nobody care about me so I can die guilt free.....