Notes

I like how everyone agrees with Lyric when he didn't tell the whole story. He and me were very close, we hung out like everyday and watches movies and...Teen Wolf. Teen Wolf was so much fun...remember that Lyric? Derek, Scott, Stiles, we used to be occupied for hours. We used to be inseparable and do everything together, but... he grew distant. He and I hung out less... messaged less... argued more... I didn't want this. I didn't want you to abandon me... you promised me you never would. You promised me many things... like visiting me in the UK with Rouge one day... guess that's gone now. You were really important to me, you don't realise how much of me you took with you. It won't ever be the same, nothing will ever be the same, I miss saying morning to you, and goodnight, and having those movie times and series, heck I don't even want to go on rabb.it anymore. I'm really hurt...I understand why you left though...I'm annoying, suicidal most the time, depressed most the time, I told you that you'd leave eventually, didn't I? You refused it but look, it happened... you abandoned me. Also remember last night? You threatened me that if I didn't sort my depression and anxiety out, you'd abandon me and obviously my face was red from crying so hard and I had a massive headache...I was even going to self harm. Then you said it was a "Joke" and a "Test" but how can you joke about something like that? You know I take things to heart...and you know I'm sensitive. What else could I have done besides getting mad? You know I have anger issues like you do. You had no sympathy and then you just blocked and abandoned me after me saying "PISS OFF" because I was mad that you made me cry that much just to tell me it was a joke. Also knowing that you think me dying is fine, that hurts. I was on the verge of suicide, the very edge but my best friend talked me out of it. 3 years... gone. Lost. Trashed. Dumped. For what?... what do you get out of it?... satisfaction of knowing I'll be hurt forever?... You don't know how much this hurt me. In the past you've blocked me so many times over silly arguments and later wanted to be friends again. I'll miss you... and all the fun times we had... but... have a good life.... :pensive: . . .