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You're one of the biggest sweethearts ive ever met. Caring about me, being kind, being nice. You annoy the shit out of me sometimes but its still good. Basically I dont want to hurt you by leading you on, but i dont want to hurt you by giving it a go then being shit because i dont want commitment. As much as you say rn we're not together, it felt like we were. You lived here p much. We saw eachother every day. Spoke every day. Idk, its not like its a bad thing at all. I love it. I do feel like i was sort of tricked into a relationship. I also think the sophie thing weighed on me too, but now thats over its a big weight off my shoulders. I dont want you to think its you because its not, it's literally me. (damn talk about cliche), im not not really mentally in the place for commitment right now i dont think. I can i care about you when i dont really care about myself. (damn, more cliche). I'd be upset if you moved on, you'd be upset if i moved on. I don't want you to and im a v jel person so it upsets me thinking about that as a possibility. Even talking to martin makes me tweak ahah, I literally have an issue. A huge problem with commitment and a massive jealousy issue lmaoooo. Also like, what would you do if I went to Norwich with Ry. I might not even go to Norwich. Might even go further. I just feel like i was a fresh start and people to not know my business. Everyone in ipswich nkows everything. One thing you do do quite a lot is let people know my/our business which is one of the only few things is dislike. This is a way rambly message but it sort of gets a few points across. Im exceptionally bad with words, im dyslexic and I cant write v well but its all meant nicely and im not @ing you at all.