Notes

Easter to Me

You know like Easter is coming up and people are like getting ready to have like easter parties or relaxation or praising God for what He did and all that.. well how I feel about Easter is like yeah, I'm going to have like a family picnic and then church for the awesomeness.. but this is how I feel about it. Sometimes I feel like God is so close in my life, it felt like His arms were wrapped around me and I could hear His voice so clearly.. but a lot of the times, I feel like God is so far, like He took a few steps back and it feels so far away and there's like no way I'll get back to Him, like "Dad where are you?" The times in my life where I'll stumble and fall and it feels like my Father should have caught me but He didn't, were some of the most painful stuff, like I can't see what He's doing sometimes.. But when Easter comes around, I look at it as "Wow, He did all that for me?" The God of all creation went through all that suffering so I can be in His loving arm.. I hear my God just whisper, "Beloved son, I want you in my arms, will you just fix your eyes on me?" And after awhile I start to not just stumble and fall, but I start to stumble forward, putting one foot in front of the other, because sooner or later there will come a day, if I continue forward, that I'll fall into His loving arms again. And that's what I'm waiting for and I believe that's what the Father is waiting for. And it was what I did in those moments that really defined my walk with God because He did not bring me here to abandon me, He brought me here to turn me into the man He created me to be. And Easter is realizing what He did and fixing your eyes back onto Him and realizing that He will bring you back into his loving arms again.