Notes

I was 11. He was 15. Me and him were playing xbox and i had fallen asleep. Apparently while i was asleep, he had carried me to his bed. Before i knew it, my clothes were off. I had no idea what was happening! I was still innocent. So i pretended to be asleep while he did it. After he had shot his load all over me, i was carried into the bathroom and put into the tub while water was running. Gently, he washed, dried, and dressed me again. Then i was laid on the bed again. I had no idea what happened, so i did not tell anyone. I did start looking things up and listening to people at school. The next time it happened, i was at home alone. I was at my friends' house. I walked home and unlocked the door with a key mom gave me. He was in my room, and apparently mom had left him because she had to go to Waco. He wanted to hang out for a few hours. I thought no harm could come from watching a movie, so i put a romantic movie in, made some popcorn(this was when we had a microwave,) and closed the blinds so it was pretty dark. It was also cold so i had a blanket. We watched it for a while before he said he had to go to the bathroom. So i paused the movie and waited for him. Then i heard "Aww Shit!" He had spilled water all over his shirt on "accident." I put his shirt in the drier and resumed the movie. It was a movie that he brought with him to watch. I had sat down first, so he got to choose where he wanted to sit. Which was right next to me. So close, im fact, that it we shared the blanket. We shifted to where his arm was around my shoulders, my head in the crook of his neck, and he was holding and rubbing my hand. I didn't say anything because me and my other cousins held hands at one time or another. The moment i started getting wary was when he started running his hand up and down my thigh, getting higher and higher each time. I was wearing my baggy shorts that ride up whenever i have been sitting for a while. I touched his hand when it got close to my crotch once too many times, but he only grasped