Notes

oh well it is what it is hes not coming on the last day today is his last day i signed his shirt he signed mine we didint talk that was the last time we saw eachother he was waiting to sign my shirt although where going to the same highschool i will miss the memories we had at our primary school such as the play fights,talks,play arguments,physical play fights, and pen grabbing those memories where great now that were leaving primary into a school full of kids we wont know having our own year 7 area scares me now thatll we'll be different and not speak to eachother im glad we lasted but those eye contacts,smiles from across the room wont happen again which saddens me not just that i wont be able to see any of my other friends with saddens me to she was the best and a friend ive never had like it just gives me a feeling that i wont be the same my friends wont be the same and most importantly God will be the same and i love him so much. sometimes it makes me think if i had a chance to go to the future and leave or redo the past and go back to 2015-2022 those where my years i cant lie the day me and treysen found a connection we had a great connection but now its nothing moved classes and what a suprise it disance us i get bodyshamed alot and that makes me insecure "oh bro shes so fat" just cause i was talking about how my dad cooked noodles i hear those words like he hasent called me that a million times i cant believe its coming to an end i come home eat chocolates and text my friends not just that thinking about how im basically forcing them to talk to me i loved this one boy and he left and doesnt bother coming on the last day when they ship him with my friend they act like it doesnt crush my heart in a million pieces i lost to a race oh why maybe because of my weight i broke a fan oh why maybe because im stupid i did rizz lines as a joke and claimed to be "droi" "there laughing at you" basically saying there laughing at me but you just got to thug it out cause at the end of the day nobody cares about you and youll realise how lonley you are because people text you for the entertainment well some and that kinda happens to me this one boy likes my friends manipulated me into thinking he liked me but texted my friend behind my back and oh all of a sudden they had a connection dont get me wrong i liked a guy but this guy always tried getting my attention and thought it was funny he already lost me now that i know hes a player thanks to you im done with love my heart belongs with God and family and friends and him