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As soon as I went to bed, I wasn't tired anymore. I couldn't sleep, I was worried, worried because of Kian. I thought that when he comes back, we're gonna spend that evening together or watch a movie or do something but at least us together and not just saying "Hi" to each other and a peck on the lips, then both of us going to our houses.
It feels like everything's going wrong all of a sudden, First Kian leaving then Harry and now back to kian. I swear these people can't let me live with peace!
After hours of staring at the white ceiling of my bedroom, sleep finally took over me.

After just 2 hours of sleeping, I had to wake up because of sixth form. To be honest I don't know how I managed to even open my eyes. I was doubting if I should go today since I haven't slept much last night, however when I remembered that Kian's going to be there, I instantly forgot about my sleepless night and was determined to talk to him about everything. I was worried that he might want to break up with me or that maybe he'll say he's acting that like that because of something I did, although as far as I know I haven't done anything bad or to make him act like this..

As soon as I arrived at school I went straight to where me and Kian always met in the morning before he went to America. As I got there, I couldn't find Kian anywhere, which is really shocking for me since we literally met there EVERY SINGLE DAY. I decided to text him.
"Morning Kian, I'm at our usual meeting place, where you at?!" After five minutes I finally got a response back.
"Sky? Shit, I'm sorry. I'm next to my friends, I'll be there in less than 5 minutes, and morning btw."
Did he really fucking text me that?! What the actual fuck! I was really, really mad at him.
After 15 minutes of waiting for him, I saw coming over and then gave me a hug, A FUCKING HUG, like are you kidding me?!
"WHAT THE FUCK KIAN? ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?" I yelled at him.
"What? and why are you yelling?"
"Why am I yelling Kian? Let me tell you why, I've waited for you for two fucking weeks and when you fucking come back, we don't say one full sentence to each other and today you forgot to come and meet me here, that's what happened Kian. Why?! what have I done to you? am I not good enough? Have you found someone better? or maybe you want to break up with me? ...I love you Kian" I said with my eyes full of tears.
"What? No, Sky I love you a lot. Look me in the eyes and listen to me okay? I love you and nothing will change that! I'm just tired because of time difference etc but it has nothing to do with you, okay?"
I nodded my head and he gave me a kiss which turned into a make out session..
"So, is everything okay between us?" I asked Kian.
"Yes, sky. I want to tell you something though..."
"What?"
"If you see me a bit distant, It's nothing to do with you..I just want to focus on my football career, so we might have to hang out less for a while.."
I just nodded my head and said nothing, obviously I was really sad and quite disappointed that he chose football over me, but I knew how much passion he has for football, and I'm definitely not gonna be the one who change that.
"So, what'd you say?" He said after a few minutes of silence
"I'm not gonna say I'm not sad but I'm happy for you, I know the passion you have for football and I'm gonna support you" I said while kissing him.