Notes

I feel so angry at the world and sad. i hate my dad so much sometimes i wish i never had one at all... and its funny bc i used to be such a little daddies girl but ig time goes on. he got rid of my dog which there was no need for AT ALL. he took his STUPID wifes side "if i cant have my dog then she cant have hers." LIKE WHAT KIND OF BITCH DOES THAT FR- AND ITS THE FACT THAT HE DIDNT TRY AND STAND UP FOR ME IN THAT SITUATION. he stay messin around with her AFTER EVERYTHING she put me and MY family through. I WANT HER GONE. EARASED. UNKNOWN. all she is, is just a worthless piece of shit. so is my dad for that. hes not even my dad... idk where MY dad is. he changed sooo much after she came in the picture. ik he does a lot for me but in the end he messes it all up. fathers cause pain that no other can.

i need things to go back to normal.... i need my happiness back. and believe it or not i actually want to be nice to ppl for a change but its impossible for me bc over the littlest things i get hella irritated. and atp my anger is starting to become overwhelming and im honestly scared that one day im gonna blow up like a bomb out of frustration on someone i never meant to hurt. im trying to call out for help but its like im muted. tbh i just want to disappear forever.. but i cant bc i have a mom, 2 younger brothers, a sister. yes i still get the intrusive thoughts of suicide but when it gets that bad i take a break from everything and issolate myself for quiet and peace.