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dont bother messaging me if you'll just ignore me, i get it you might be busy and i understand that completely, but when you do seem to have time, im the only one who tries to make a conversation with you and im always messaging first. you dont even seem to have interest in me or even just having a simple 2 minute conversation about your day or how you're feeling. it makes me feel like you just don't enjoy me anymore. i'm trying to start slow and be friends with you but i can't if you don't bother trying, do you even think about me even once a day? it seems as if I've lost my place, like you don't care at all anymore. You used to message me everyday, even first before I was even awake, or when I fell asleep. we'd compliment each other ALL the time, and we'd call just as much as we even message. it's so sad how you've lost interest and forgotten so quickly, it hurts a lot, breaks my heart, and damages my social skills. it's made me feel like NO ONE enjoys my company, not just you. i'm afraid to talk to you now, it's a weird feeling to describe. when i type something out to send it to you, i always send it then delete it, or i just backspace it all, cause i feel like i'll bother you, because when i do send it and leave it, it takes you hours to reply. like i said, if you're busy, that's fine, but ik when you're not. and when you aren't i see you still don't click on my notification when i message. im sorry if i annoy you, i'm sorry if i bore you or drain you or tire you out. i really am sorry. i just love you a lot and idk how tf to say it, i used to say it all the time, and i'd get a cute reply. i don't anymore, i get a little "I love you too" or smth less.. you used to say "aww ur adorable, i love you too" or something with emojis or enthusiasm ykwim. i wish i could be as close to you as i was before, it hurts to see you lose interest in me, im sorry you have to sit there and make up excuses as to why you didn't respond to me. ik you get the notification, THATS why i get sad and grumpy when you make up excuses saying you are busy, when you're literally playing video games. i understand if you don't want to talk to me, but atleast tell me that so i dont make myself look stupid when every 10 minutes i try message you. thanks a lot Boston.