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Dear Matthew,

Thank you for the call and give more time when texting me so that I will adjust to when you call me next time. Let's schedule a meeting for December as a window of opportunity may appear. If we don't prepare it now and schedule it, everything will be extended, which is not what you want or is good for me. I lost my partner and had your mom been healthy and alive, she would have supported me as much as I have given her all the time. Your mother suffered until the last moments and I suffer today, so how much more of this suffering is needed. What kind of payment is it for being good people. This mental and physical suffering can demoralize anyone. I hope things will turn in the right direction, but the period of my ailments, your mother's illness, the time and turn of events after your mother's death have put me in a very bad condition. On every front, it bothers me and there is no good day or end to it. I suffer from old and more advanced diseases every day. My visit to the dentist is long overdue and I don't see any chance to deal with it now which won't end my suffering like it does today. I wonder for the sake of what I am going through this difficult time. I have done nothing wrong to anyone and my conscience has always been clean. One day this nightmare will be over or I will open my eyes and understand the source of everything. Me and your mom had no plans for anything more than a good life to the end. Your mom told you many times not to worry about her because we are in a good position. It turns out I can't say that today. This situation is becoming a nightmare for me. We must make progress in a good atmosphere, thus helping each other and separately and not let them turn out to be negative. We need your optimism and vision here, so that we do not postpone these matters any further. Let me know the outcome of your arrangements with Susanne so we can remedy the situation, please.